One year ago, I made a decision based on my faith and the things I felt for you to take our friendship to another level despite I knew you were moving away and leaving me. It was honestly one of the hardest choices I ever made. I went back and forth those last couple weeks so much. My head said don't do it, my heart needed you, and my spirit... god was the tie breaker. He's the one that said to give myself to you without reservation because you were a part of me and before you left I needed to be with you fully. I let down all my walls that night the most I ever had for anyone and everything from the fireworks to the boat ride, right up until you had to leave the next morning, will always be sacred for me.
Tony, I love you. I will
always love you. It doesn't matter to me that you are afraid, you aren't ready, you have doubts, you have feelings elsewhere. I'm
sure. I thought with the separation from you I'd be able to let you go, but it's been the opposite. Every day my resolve of who we are and where we are headed
